| So...I am 32 weeks (i think) and have had to go to the hospital 2 or 3 times. I keep on getting these pains and stuff. We have our own apartment now. Its nice. Miguel (the baby) moves all the time. It really is a miracle. I really do love him. How is that possible? To love someone that you haven't even met yet? I dont know. Anyways, I sent in the papers to get my test date for the GED. Then, after I have the baby and my GED, I am going to go to DeVry and get a degree in Business Technology. Sounds good huh? O and I got ANOTHER job. Working for this lady that owns a non profit art agency. Right now I am creating a mailing list of over 1000 people for her and after I have the baby she asked me to be her personal assistant. I am still considering that one. Then I still do the usual babysitting. There is a 95% chance that Roland will be leaving for 6 months. Even before the baby is born. New Orleans. To help clean up or something. That means that I will have to go through labor and the first 4 or more months of the baby by myself. Its not like i have anyone else. Its actually somewhat amusing. I have NO friends. I dont really understand it either. Will someone that USED to be my friend please tell me WHAT EXACTLY is WRONG with me??? I mean, I try to be a kind, considerate person and then...poof...everyone hates me. Doesnt make shit worth of sense. I just cant get it. Oh well. If any one of you reads this...if we were EVER really friends, please take the time and try to explain it to me. Thanks.... |
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| Hey. Its official. His name will be Miguel Flores. I like it. I am 6 months now and getting bigger. Rolo and I got into an arguement last nignt. He wanted to drink for his birthday with his brothers. I mean wanted to get FUCKED UP. I told him that I didn't want him to because of his diabetes. He got really mad. I don't know what to do because when he gets like that I feel like the stupidest shit in the world. I really hated myself last night. Like as in I just wanted to crawl into a hole and dissappear. Not good huh? I just want to be happy. And not for just a split second out of the day. I mean happy for the whole day. Just once. Is that too much to ask? |
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| Leaning towards Miguel..... |
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| hey...sorry i havent written in a while. I am getting pretty big now. Still having nausea though. Is that normal? Looking for boys names that go with Flores. Any suggestions?? |
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| nobody likes me everybody hates me guess i'll go eat worms.....
I am worried about my brother. |
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